restless

My mind has been restless for quite some time. I don't know how to describe it. I feel weak. Yes, that is the right word to describe my current spirituality.

It seems that I fell into some trap and I have been struggling to get out of it. I desire the freedom I felt before. Christ died for our freedom. There is no reason that we can't have it if we want to.

Today in the church our pastor talked about how to strengthen our faith between our Sunday services. It spoke to my heart. One week is a long space. I know I could be around more Christians, while I hardly talk to one inbetween my lifegroup meetings.

But I know God is with me. Last week I felt I was in the midst of a desert. Then on Friday Rachel invited me to dinner. Today I was able to sit and talk with more than half of my group at church. It was such a quick answer to my prayer.

Thank you God for choosing to faithfully love me.

freedom

I went to church today. I went, because I felt I need to. It was perfect, because the pastor talked about how to be free from our fear, something that has been on my mind for a while.

It was great to be reminded of that we should not evaluate our doings by the world's standards. We are not a failure in God's eyes. He sees us as the person we have potential to be. If we do as he asks to, we can never fail. Having that in mind, we can be free from our fear of failing.

Our pastor also shared with us a thrilling story about some people living in some dangerous part of Detroit and changing lives little by little. He asked us to act, to take more risks that might bring glory to God's name.

There were sheets for us to sign up things that we are able to help. I chose mentoring new believers and chinese scholars. I am not sure if I will be qualified or if that'll make any change, but it's not up to me to decide. All I need to do is to enjoy the freedom and do something.