Tuesday, July 22, 2008

wonder

I wonder if it is time to leave this place. I had some good memories here, but now it feels to me that it won't make any difference if I just disappear one day. I know people would say they care, but do they really?

I don't know where I am in terms of my relationship with God. Things that happened in the last couple of weeks kept irriating me. At one point I was utterly disappointed by all the people involved. I guess they didn't do anything wrong. Well, it doesn't make any difference to me.

Maybe God is teaching me how to appreciate certain quality in other people. I am not sure. I am quite confused right now. Maybe a little hurt.

What I am fighting with is not very clear to me either. My pride? Sure, that never stops. Showing grace? Probably. Maybe I never really forgave.

God and I need some good talk.

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

pride

"In fact, if you want to find out how proud you are the easiest way is to ask yourself, 'How much do I dislike it when other people snub me, or refuse to take any notice of me, or shove their oar in, or patronise me, or show off?'"
---"Mere Christianity" by C. S. Lewis