how is it between you and me

I just finished another book "blue like jazz" by Donald Miller. While reading it, I was quite inspired to write something down. But when I sat down in front of the computer, I lost the desire.

I haven't attended any service for a couple of months. Going to church is like a habit. Once it stopped, it's difficult to pick it up. Although I have been trying to set aside some time for us, I feel unsure about where I am. So really, how is it between you and me now?

Lying in the dark, just the thought of you would make me tremble. I wonder how everybody else feels about it. How can I live this realitiy every second of my life? How can I not?

I wish I could do better.