do not lost heart

I am feeling better tonight.

It has been a while since I lost my vision. I was stuck in a wheel. All I thought about was to keep the wheel running, and I was very stressed.

I decided to take a break tonight. I thought about reasons why I felt so distant not only from God but also from my friends. And I reminded myself of what's the most important thing in this life.

I was so close to lose my heart. Actually I thought I already lost it. Last night I thought about Charles Templeton, because I felt I longed for God, but I just couldn't.

But fortunately I see a little clearly now.

It was not easy. Never was. I don't wanna go through this again. But if I have to, I hope I can be stronger.